LuLu - A gift from the heart of Teresa Payton

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Once upon a time, I traveled to a land far away called Subconscious.  A place where we make agreements and dream our lives into being.  It is a magical, colorful place.  And on this particular visit, I made an agreement with myself and God to host a foreign exchange teacher.  Now I know what you are thinking, it is a foreign exchange STUDENT not teacher but that was not the case.  I agreed to host a teacher because I had some things to learn.  And you know how teachers can be....some can be tough, others gentle and kind, still others can be scary and give you lots of homework.  This teacher was all of these.  Her name was Lulu.

When Lulu first showed up, she remained in the background watching silently until it was time to show herself.  And when she did,  it was a surprise.  She was round and petite, standing out in the crowd.  Now this was not the first teacher I had hosted so I was only a little afraid and I immediately remembered what my previous teacher taught me....take care of what is in front of you.  And now that I had another teacher show up, I knew there must be more to learn.  So I began sitting with my new teacher, talking, listening and asking questions.  I was a good student.  I fed her regularly, prayed for her, talked about her with concern and love and showed appreciation for the role she was playing in my life.  

She wanted to stay in the TaTa room of my home so I knew there were things to look at with the feminine aspects of myself and I did. She also showed me how in the past I tended to not ask for the help of others believing that I could do everything on my own.  We looked at faith and worry within ourselves, with Creator and in the community.  And we practiced paying attention and living in the moment.  We learned a lot in those two months and through our relationship we gave others opportunities to learn and watch us dance our relationship with grace.  And before she left, she asked me what I was willing to let go of and what I was going to replace her with.

When she left, there was a sadness as well as a relief...you know how that feels when the class is over and you know you won't have this teacher again.  But I know I will never forget what she taught me and what we learned together.  She left me with plenty of homework to practice my lessons.

Now you might be wondering where do such teachers come from...well, these teachers come from many lands but I had my choice....one  from the rugged, mountainous region of Siberia called Cancerous or from the beautiful, lush island in the middle of the Pacific called Benign.  So it wasn't until days after she left that we received a postcard from Benign and what a beautiful place to come from....


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2:00 a.m. Chatter

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    Woke from a dream that had Brad Pitt and Val Kilmer reconstructing an old home. They had patched holes in some walls and were painting them a lovely green. Really didn't want to wake up since the "scenery" was so great. However, as all too often happens, despite keeping my eyes closed in hopes of staying with the experience, my brain woke up. I immediately started analyzing the meaning of the dream and before you know it, I was wide awake with my brain fully engaged in all sorts of fact finding activities. Rather than continue lying in bed, I chose to take the thoughts from my head and put them down in print. For me, seeing the words on paper helps my mind release them from my brain. I have such an amazing brain that kicks into gear at a moments notice, regardless of my hearts wishes; it wants to offer it's services.
     My mind is grateful for the quietness of night, since daytime is so busy with other external noises. I have noticed as I get older these noises tend to be more distracting. As I hear faint sounds of the middle of the night traveler, truck driver, or delivery vehicles to the nearby Publix store, I wonder about life. How is it the business of life becomes so focused on doing? And at what point did the doing become more important then just being? Why is it we are driven to find more ways to make money? When did figuring things out become so time consuming? I remember when people just did what was necessary in order to stay up with common chores. That was, of course, when manual labor and self-sustaining activities consumed your time. Back then, you went to sleep as soon as your head hit the pillow from exhaustion. Now days, we have things we need in a box, online, delivered to us, or someone else to do it for us.
    With these conveniences more time is freed up to "think." We think of ways to get, create, obtain, manage our "things," then we spend time figuring out how to use it, keep it, even maintain it, which, of course, requires our mind to figure such things out. Little wonder we get so tired! There's a lot to "think" about. 
     For this moment, I am just going to tell my brain everything is just fine. Things are as perfect as they can be and if it really wants to help me, it can be very still while I return to two delicious men waiting to help renovate an old building. Hmm, what I know of dream analysis is a building represents your spiritual life, so I say let Brad Pitt and Val Kilmer return, I have a hunch they can do a great deal for my soul! Come to think about it, fantasies do make my heart race, and I'll take that form over walking the 'treadmill' anyday!


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